contradictions.

I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately. I've come to a lot of conclusions about myself and knowing who I am. I realize that I like who I am and the person/mother/wife/friend I've become. I have a healthy sense of self appreciation and feel worthy of...everything good that comes my way. I'm confidant in my appearance and knowing what I want out of life. Why is it then, that at the same time, I'm so insecure? I'm always doubting myself and cutting myself down. I assume the worst and often set myself up for disappointment. Why am I living so many contradictions every day? It's hard knowing who to talk to...or how to talk about it without acknowledging that you feel like you've failed somehow, or that there's a problem somewhere? I feel stuck inside my head. can't wait for the fog to lift and know how to feel.